I remember when I was in High School, I was on the Step Team (briefly) and we were practicing after school. I was in the middle of stepping when I got passed out. Once I woke up, I remember throwing up in the lobby of my school awaiting the ambulance. Nope! I didn't have a stomach virus or the flu or anything like that.. it was my cycle.
I also recall working in Forever 21 in Herald Square on a busy Summer Day and passing out again! Another instance where the ambulance had to carry me out in front of all of my co-workers, managers and everybody that was in the store and outside. I was so embarrassed! But, I was used to it!
This would occur quite a few times over the next 15 Years!
I've had Anemia for a very long time! Anemia is a condition marked by a deficiency of red blood cells or of hemoglobin in the blood, resulting in pallor and weariness. Being that my body have always been low in Iron and Blood; once my cycle would come, my levels would always decrease! The feeling of consistent weakness came in my mid-20s but my fainting spells and hospital emergency visits came around every Month like clockwork.
During the Year I lived in Baltimore in 2007, I got into an argument with my Girlfriend at the time and it sent me into sometime meltdown. I ended up going to the hospital and being admitted. I remember The Doctor telling me how surprised she was that I haven't passed out because my Iron & Blood levels were so low. It was highly recommended that I got my first Blood Transfusion! It was a success and I had never felt better. However, This wouldn't be the only one. Between 2007 and 2017, I received THREE Blood Transfusions! Crazy! But, my Levels fell so low three times in my life that drastic measures needed to be taken.
After each of these Transfusions, I always felt like a brand new person. After my last Transfusion, I started to see a Hematologist about once a Month where I'd receive Iron Infusions because my levels would always seem to drop overtime. We found out that my Iron & Blood Levels would be good until my cycle came (which *TMI* was always very heavy) then they would drop again! Well, that sucked! I'm a Woman, a young Woman so my cycle was a sure thing every Month which meant my levels would continuously & I'd need Transfusions and Infusions for the rest of my life? "Oh No! This has to stop!" was my feeling when I started to notice the never-ending cycle.
So, Two Years ago, after a lot of back & forth with many doctors, I found out I had Fibroids! Yes, Fibroids with an "s!" A Fibroid is a benign tumor of muscular and fibrous tissues, typically developing in the wall of the uterus.
After receiving this news, I did everything that I can read and research to shrink them naturally. I changed my diet, I ordered and took many different pills that I either read or was told to help shrink them as well as drink cups and cups of Cranberry Juice and everything I read or was told. I did this for Two Years and every time I had another sonogram, I found that they were growing despite my efforts. Any surgery is risky so of course, I've been nervous and I will be until I'm knocked out cold BUT with all of the praying I've been doing and researching about the procedure and the surgeon, I'm sure I'll be fine!
I'm sharing this very personal moment in my life on my blog and YouTube because for many years, I thought I was alone; at least I felt that way. So many people were saying that me eating Ice was more of a choice than a serious addicting craving or I'm not weak, I'm just being lazy or it's because I'm not eating Liver. I never received a lot of support and usually was told "It's your fault" so for many years, I allowed these opinions to get in my head and blamed myself. It wasn't until recently that I decided to say "Fuck Opinions" and KNEW that I was having a daily battle with my own body! One that I was constantly losing that sent me into depression many times. When I look back on my 20s, I spent most of it in bed... How Sad! This surgery couldn't have come at a better time. The surgery date is exactly 2 Months before my 30th Birthday! Oh How, I'm looking forward to my 30s! I will live my 30s like I wish I could've lived my 20s & I hope that Women read this knowing that you are not in your head, your not to be blamed & you are not alone!
See You In April! :)